Prion Entanglement

If you’re reading this, it is over. Definitively terminated. Concretely splattered. Oftentimes I’ve wondered what your final thoughts must be, falling through the sky. I don’t believe in honourable suicide, most people are probably scared, regretful, frantic. As the sky becomes Earth, as head becomes pavement, as man becomes corpse, freedom becomes absolute and unattainable. Infinite freedom requires infinite creativity. Rules grant us choices. One of those choices is whether or not to break the rules, to tap into the limitless potential beyond what has been outlined for us. To escape the dreams we’ve written, to live as an expression of our souls. To cry out in desperation, to parade in blood, to rain onto the Earth like an atom bomb. To explode into crimson passion.

The expression of my soul is as follows. What you will read now, if you are brave enough, is my blood on the pavement. I hope it is impossible to look away.

I stand at the margin which divides souls in two

The sands between the fragile earth and the sea of death

I build a castle

I dig out a moat

I fill it with water.

I watch the sculpin slowly dissipate, drowning in the sand

I build a new castle

A bigger castle, a better castle

A better-planned castle, a more beautiful castle

A romantic castle, a seductive castle

I spend 40 days building the castle

The tide has come in countless times

Stained with the corpses of sculpin and sandcrabs

filled with venom

I walk away rather than watch it crumble

I walk towards the sea

Behind me I leave two castles 

one born of solitude and one born of romance

I can’t bear to look back at either

I sit down at the edge of the tide

The sand, as though it was powdered lemonade dissolving in water, begins to melt away

The sea, as though it was made of sand dusting through the wind, begins to melt away

The sky, as though it was made of water diffusing lemonade, begins to stain itself yellow

then orange

then red

Why does the sun set red?

I look to the sun for answers

I look directly into it’s crimson eyes

I’ve broken a rule

I fall